Yesterday Jonathan & I had a big discussion about a few things that have been playing on my mind lately and we ended up reaching a decision about the direction of my YouTube channel that I feel the need to share with you guys. Over the last ten years I've been making videos, uploading blog posts and creating online content and although I do love it and feel passionate about that part of my job, there have also been many changes in my personal life along the way which have a direct impact on how often I post or what I put out there. The major change being that I am now a mama of four little ones and I put that first, before anything else in my life. That will always take highest priority no matter what and although I have always tried my hardest to keep a good balance between career and being a mum, at the moment I feel like the balance is just off and I think I've stretched myself too thin. :(
The baby/toddler and younger years of our children's lives are some of the most special and important...and I don't want to waste them being stressed out because I'm spending any ounce of free time that I have in front of a computer screen, editing, uploading or filming. I think lately I have got myself into a bit of a perfectionistic mess where I'm working harder than ever before and as a result, I'm not enjoying any of the time that I have with my children because I'm constantly worrying about the endless to-do lists of tasks I need to get done. It was a struggle to even admit this because part of me doesn't want to let go of everything I'm doing but I know that something's got to give. And I don't want my children to remember me as "stressed Mummy" or "cross Mummy"!
So I've decided that my YouTube channel will be on a bit of a break for the moment. I know some people won't be happy with it (I still get those few commenters that ask "what do you actually DO all day?!" hahaha!) but I assure you that I'm not going anywhere. In fact, the energy that I have been putting into my channel will now go more onto our family channel, my Instagram (which I post on daily anyway!) and here on my blog :) I just don't think that posting three times a week on YouTube is possible for me right now and although I stuck to my goal of doing just that for the month of January, if I'm completely honest it almost killed me.
I really believe that life is constantly changing and made up of different seasons. Some of the things we do work well for that particular season...and when they don't it's important to re-assess and change it up to ensure that balance is restored again. There is no point in being unhappy...life is too short for that! So no matter what you're going through, if something isn't working for you don't be afraid to make a change. It can feel uncomfortable and even scary but if it means you feel happier or like a weight has been lifted and that you can breathe again.
I hope you will understand my decision and I thank all of you who have already reached out on Instastories with your support. I honestly appreciate it so much, I am so thankful to have each & every one of you in my life and it's not something I ever take for granted! <3
What I'm Wearing
Clothing
Jumper - The White Company (old)
Jeans - Ted Baker (super old)
Boots - Whistles
Jewellery
14K Gold 5 Letter Necklace - Maya Brenner (gifted)
Perlée Signature Gold Bracelet - Van Cleef & Arpels
Soleste Earrings in Rose Gold - Tiffany's
Makeup
- Bare Minerals Good Hydrations Face Primer (gifted)
- Benefit Hoola Bronzer (gifted)
- Benefit FoolProof Brow Powder in 03 (gifted)
- Benefit 3D Browtones in 02 (gifted)
- MaxFactor False Lash Effect Mascara in Black (gifted)
- Givenchy Liner Couture Eyeliner (gifted)
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